i cant decide whether to carry on the friendship.... need ur help...
well, guys the problem is,,, my friend does not call me... i like her so much... but i dont kow Y does she give a cold response.... we r in different cities... im hostelite.. but my house is 1 km away from her house.. we were together in job.. during job,,,we used to talk to each other daily on fone and used to have the lunch together,, apart from all this,,, we had all rough stuff and funny stuff to share with each other and things were goin so good... then i started studies again and went to other city.... she mailed me that she does miss me.... but the basic problem is she does not call me... evrytime i call her,,,, sometimes she says i hav lost ur number,,,sometimes,,, she says i was busy but still when we talk,,, we talk for not less than an hour.. she remembers all what i tell her and it seems like she takes interest in my matters... ad many times she says i was calling u in my dreams.... she has never come to my home too... she said it so many times,,, but then does not come... many times she says that she willl call me tomorrow... but uptil now she has never called but i know she does wait for me to call her always,,,, and if i dont she sends me mail about how r u?? blah blah... indirectly so that i contact her.... i dont where to go...i have been so tense these days... even i mailed her about everything i feel...she came online after some days and she said im crying ... plz,,, talk to me..... she said im so sorry and she said she will call me but again she didnt and she didnt give me any reason for ignoring me this way... and one thing more,,, she has never invited me to come to her house as well... but then Y did she cry???
as far as i know her psychology,, she trusts very few ppl..... she shares her secrets with me... and she was really sad when i left the place... i saw sadness on her face and she told me that she does not want me to go... i was not wronmg in understanding her.. shez not expressive,,,, she hide feelings from me,,, but i feel she likes me..... and evrytime,,, i try to talk infront of her about not calling,, she somehow changes the topic...
i dont know what to do? im thinking these days to leave her forever... becoz what sort of frienship is that?? im hanging in the middle...very much tense these days..... when i think of leaving her,, her tears come to my mind but i cant call her all the times... its not just my duty.... if i dont call,,,, we cant talk to each other..... sometimes,, my hearts says she loves me,,, but my mind says she does not.. if she wud, then she wud hav definitely called me.....
IS that the fone bill problem or what??? she uses the prepaid residential fone and her father is doctor...i dont know whether she does all that to save her money or she wants to leave me... or does not want to leave me as she said??? i got ill while thinking of all that...... becoz i love her so much... she understands me.. and we always have jokes to share and laugh together.... and i know she enjoys my company,... talks to me happilly... but can u tell me Y she does not call me ?? does not she love me?? or its fone bill problem??but atleast she can come to my house which she does not?? these all questions make me mad?? and ill too?? i seriously need a good advice...plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............... :(
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