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Thoughts from nowhere
I never considered myself any wiser than the rest of us….I’m none the wiser. There are things in my life that after all these years, have still to work on getting over, yes just like everyone else is unexcused to the bitterness in life, I too, have hang ups. Be it heartaches, failures, unachieved dreams and unfinished goals, we all at one point may have gotten lost to achieve these dreams and follow our hearts, only because we got steered away from the unattractive reality of the word responsibility. We all want to be reckless…sometimes. I too was reckless.
Back when we were young and everything seems so big, the world seems so vast, everything was exciting. Back in the days, things were just simple. And then I grew up. This wanna be big girl that thinks she can conquer the world is so disappointed in finding out that the world is not that big, and in fact so small. At least my world was. Some part of me want so much to explore and another part of me holds back..afraid to let go and face the uncertain. Sometimes when we live in our perfect bubble of a world so sheltered and protected we are paralyzed into moving in a different and unfamiliar territory because we don’t know what is in store for us. So out of fear we stick to what we are comfortable and live within its limits…but isn’t it human to err, to be curious and to stumble. Isn’t life’s greatest perk is making mistakes and learning from it and growing from it, yet the world is made up of people who condemn and remember you by the mistakes u made and not on the goodness of your heart. I too am guilty of judging. Aren’t we all??
Life is not a puzzle to be solved. Every step we make and every moment of our lives we make choices and decisions, small ones, big ones, crucial ones, difficult ones, important and urgent ones. Every minute is a choice. To tell u the truth for a long time I have made the wrong choices and suffered the consequences of my actions, but I don’t think that makes me a bad person, if not it has actually made me a better person. Knowing what I know now, with the knowledge I carry, I know that even if u think the world is so cruel, it must have something good to offer to let us go this far. Life is too precious to live it with regrets, to form a preconceived notion that no good is left. Look at it this way if the world is created with the perfect society, with perfect people and everyone just so perfect, no war, no deaths, no tragedy, no sorrow, no pain. If we live in this kind of world, how would we know peace? Life? Living? Happiness? Joy? Love? If it is freely given to us, then how would we treasure it…there are just some things in life worth going through to see the light at the end of the tunnel… I believe that I have yet so much to learn and so much to achieve. Like I said the first step is always the hardest but it gets easier each time. The key is to live it one day at a time and live it like there is no tomorrow.
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